Dreams

I have some very strange dreams sometime, but I had one the other day that I just have to write down.

Eric and I were walking and all of a sudden I saw my dad.   I went up to him and said “Can I have a hug?”   He teased me and said “Aren’t you a little old to be getting hugs?” And I said no… so he hugged me and said, still teasing “I don’t know, it feels a little weird, you should still be a little girl” and I said “I think it feels like heaven”.   Then as we started to walk away from each other I called out to him “I’m coming to see you Dad! I’m coming to see you in February!” and then all of a sudden I realized I was dreaming.  I said out loud “This is a dream.  I’m dreaming!” And I turned around to look back at my dad, and when he turned around it wasn’t him anymore, it was me.  Except the Dream Me didn’t look exactly like me…  a little more wild, wearing a red dress….  made me feel a little scared though of what I didn’t know.  Then the Dream Me made a kind of “Surprise!” face, though not really in a nice way, and not really in a mean way either.  I didn’t like it though, so I stuck my tongue out at her and woke myself up.

It reminds me of another lucid dream I had.  That time I was at a swimming pool, my mom was there, and some other people…but it was really hard to swim.  I got out of the pool and wondered why it was so hard to swim, like my arms were so heavy.  Then I thought – that’s how it feels when I’m dreaming…. and I again said out loud “I’m dreaming! This is a dream!”  And knowing then it was a dream I decided it was going to be what I wanted it to be, and I said out loud “I want to see my dad!”  Everything around me started melting away, and all of a sudden it was like I was sitting in a crazily tilting chair in a madly melting world of black swirling nothingness around me… and out of the darkness I heard footsteps…. and I got scared again and woke myself up.

I have no idea what they might mean, they’re just weird dreams that stick with me.